I feel pretty outdated actually. Friends are using tumblr, and im still sticking to blogspot. Im not a frequent user afterall. So does it make a difference if i stick to this or not?

Anyways...

its been alot that ive gone through eversince i last blogged. I have a part time job, new friends, going through my 2nd year blah3.

I have something that I would like to say...Not sure how i'll write, but i'll try...


"Over and over again, this phrase i say,
'this guy is cute, this guy is sweet.'

But eventually,
they all turn out to be jerks.

Over the past few months,
I found a friend.
It was unexpected.
I thought all that happen,
was like what others said.

As I thought it over, they're just rumours.
As I thought it over, it might not be what I thought it might be.

But damn!

Why were u so nice.
Why is there this gentleman in you which I don't see in others?

Cliche!
This guy is sweet, this guy is cute.
I don't want this to be a cliche.
I want this for real.

For real?
So what if I try to make it real.
Will it even last?

Long term.
I could move on easily.
But till when do I wanna try to find this long term.

Perhaps this feeling is just like a panadol.
It reliefs pain and headaches temporarily.
This feeling wont help in the long run,
perhaps, just for a moment.


But, when we look back after all that has happened.
We wont remember panadol has relieved us from the pain and headaches,
but will we remember this feeling that has once gave us the feeling of fantasy?

I don't know..."




nia'

Everyone have thoughts. Unexpected thoughts, deep thoughts etc. To express it, perhaps it's fine but sometimes it's just too much. Some thoughts perhaps are fine as they have answers to them but some they don't. So when we know there's no answer to why, why do we still bother to ask someone about such questions? Well, I do ask such unanswerable questions sometimes, i guess it'll just frustrates people sometimes or just give them the wrong idea about something...

oh well...im lost for now..


nia'

my thoughts..

hello manusia semua =D
honestly I don't have any idea what to blog about in here. My feelings and emotions are all typed in my handphone. Because its always there beside me when im feeling down or sideways hahah..sideways ehk? merepek je.

Anyways,I've met few of different guys lately. Just wanted to understand how different each individuals are. From the way they think, the way they protray themself and etc. Being a growing girl, struggling to be a lady, i have my criterias to be in a serious relationship. The guy should have the intelligence, goal in life and just mature when they need to be. I wont deny looks play apart. They have to be cute. okay cute. haha. It's hard to get that all in one person.

Intelligence. Some,they might be smart academically but to live as a human, theyre just not smart enough. Not saying i am. It's just that, the way they think totally contradicts theyre personality. But im sure there are guys out there who has that intelligence that im looking for...

Goal in life. Without these goals, without the serious thoughts on why we are living in this world and how we can make it happen, we gonna be aimless. My theory of this is, if the guy has a goal in life, it means a part of them is aware that life as a human on earth is not easy at all.

Mature when they need to be? well its all up to u babes. How would u wanna define it? it's up to u. And i say age matters.in a way... If ur not having a prepared mind of having a partner who is way older or in a different phase of life, it could be tough for the couple and it might just nt work out that smoothly. Having a prepared mind or at least an open mind, we are able to accept the things that we've not understood before. All it takes is faith and risk.

Well, others might have different opinions with what I wrote. But hey. These are my criterias in a guy and thats just how i explain it.

And oh, i got to this one guy, hes gt all the ticks in my list. He's just simply unforgettable. It's like when hes in my mind, theyre will be no one else in my mind except him. cool huh. but then again the twine is still entangled..........=/

actually, i dun really quite understand the purpose of this post..weird..

nia'

gonner.

heys bloggie.

It's been quite awhile since im inspired to write a post for my blog.
My holidays have been pretty boring. So much for me dragging my days thru sch just for the holidays. damn.
Im suppose to go kl for the hols, but sis my sister from kl is here, so i guess the plan is cancelled.

And oh, i have this awkward feeling abt tarian. when i skipped my practises, i keep dreaming of my teacher scolding me. Gosh.

I should be happy that my sis and her fam is here. I mean yea,her kids love u, hug u when u get back and wanna sleep with and stuff. That shows how much they love u. But there is one thing that is bothering me, they are pampered with facebook games. I think im just being selfish, "kedekut".
The fact is i am kedekut. I dont like to share my stuff. Its an honour if i share my stuff with u okay.


You guys wanna know sumtin? Ive always wanted to make this blog special, but i think its pretty crappy already. I wanted this blog to be full of poetic words or expressed my thoughts in those poetic words. Not only abt love but in general. The simple things that we see. Writing an article isnt a bad idea too yea?

I still got lots to learn on how to write all this.
wonder who even reads this thing..-.-"

and this blogger seems to lacking in something, i dont quite know how to put fotos. where are the buttons? sheesh


nia'

sweet?

i read this somewhere...

"If my girfriend a decade younger, I'll have to behave like a teen sometimes. And she has to act ten years older sometimes..That, will only be fair..."

I find it sweet when i first read it =)



nia'

eyecandy;

Dear eyecandy,

you were so sweet in the eyes of many,
yet, you just went on being yourself as normally.

your smart and intelligent.
your fit and admirable.
you just had to pass by and be my eyecandy.

so much that you're my eyecandy,
it's so much that i hate it if u have an eyecandy.

is she your eyecandy my dear eyecandy?

awww.......=(


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nia'

its just not my forte i guess...

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