teman sepermainan ku.

suatu ketika dahulu,
aku mempunyai seorang teman.
teman sepermainan.
dimana ada dia, disitu lah aku.
kita bermain dari pagi hingga senja.
kita bagai adik dan abang.

"knock knock!"
"ainul ada?"

itulah yang sering aku katakan bila di depan rumahnya.
rumah kami tidak jauh.
aku di tingkat tiga,
dia di tingkat dua.

pejam kelip pejam kelip,
kami pun sudah bersekolah.
hubungan kami tidak seakrab seperti dahulu.
dan lama kelamaan kami hubungan kami terdiam begitu saja.
apalah nasib,
kami semua sudah bepindah.
hanya gambar menjadi teman.

mujur la nenek dia kawan rapat mak aku.
oh begitu indah bila kami dapat berjumpa lagi tadi.
terasa rindu sangat.

raut wajah mu tidak berubah.
tetapi,
semakin tinggi dan kacak nampaknya.

indah,
sungguh indah.

aku harap,
di masa yang akan datang,
kami akan bersua pula.

aku di sini, akan setia menanti..
sebagai teman yang pernah singgah di hidupmu....

nia'

detikan waktu semakin rancak.
waktu untuk berjumpa dengan saudara dan keluarga di seberang tambak semakin dekat.
ghairah sungguh ghairah.
bosan juga tidak terkata.

tetapi walaupun aku gembira dapat berjumpa dengan mereka,
aku tahu mereka akan lebih sedih melihat kami pergi pulang.
terutama sekali,keluargaku yang paling terdekat.
aku turut simpati dgn keadaan mu kak.
aku dapat bayangkan kehidupan kamu di sana..
aku tahu kau siksa.
kerana tiada orang yang dapat kau panggil keluarga selain keluarga yang kamu telah membina sendiri,
kerana kau tidak bersama kami si sini, keluargamu yg tercinta.
aku dapat bayangkan kehidupan yang mewah yang kau dapat kecapi seandainya kau masih di sini jika kamu tidak ke sana.

memang amat aku turut simpati.
aku sedih, kerana kebahagiaan ku tidak dapat kau rasai. aku tidak dapat kongsi kebahagiaan ini bersama mu..
walaupun kau jauh dimata..kau akan tetap selalu dekat dihati.

kehidupan oh kehidupan.
aku yakin disebalik semua ini,
ada hikmahnya.


nia'

21st november 2008.
canberra's npcc farewell night.
and so here it goes...

as this has been a tradition in canberra's npcc unit, farewell night was much dedicated to graduating batch and also it is for us the graduating batch to show how thankful we are to those whom hav groomed us from a private to a staff sergeant and station inspectors, to those whom have taught values which we can learn and make use as a cadet or a leader in a team..as an individual when we are alone. despite the punishments, the tough training, hours to hours..all sweats and hardship..we go through it all together as a squad. well, i cant deny my squad starts to bloom only when we are almost reaching e end .(inside story). and i know, though ive always been attending trainings, i wasnt really active mentally. i wasnt really confident to lead a team. however, it has obviously thought me to be confident as an individual in my social life. and honestly, i dont regret joining npcc as it has taught me much skills and value that could be put to use even after ive passed out as a cadet.
again, as it is a tradition, after performances n dinner, e graduating batch will do their last march together. girls, all dressed with heels and guys, all groomed with pants on hips or shud i say butts. we ran to e parade square to have our last march together. we all knew what was to come. wonderfully, ive enjoyed it much. we, have enjoyed it. eventhough its been awhile since we did drills but i know,we all felt great deep inside. the cheers as a squad, was overwhelming. oh good times good times.
and so, i wish all e best to e graduating batch for the coming years. though u all are quite of a pain in e ass sometimes, but its great to have u guys as my squadmate who neva fails be lame-,- and to support each other when in need. and to TOs and CIs.. i dont know how to thank you guys but seriously, if it werent for u guys, i dont think i and we would have made it this far. and so...till we meet again..in the future.

nia.

to my surprise. black coffee actually tastes good.

XD
i sat here infront of my lappy drinking coffee..i browsed thru some old pictures...haha..enjoy..

my eldest darling sister..XD dont we just look alike..


this is not eddited i tell u..haha..took this while i was on the trishaw..XD


me n my roomate in beijing..mimie!!

all of us were addicted to e game murderer..frm the lobby to bus to the plane!..haha no doubt tat this guys will be missed..=)


2e4 class of 2006? haha..i wont exactly say i miss those old times..but yea i miss u people..=)


i like this one..


=)

nia'

the word is D E P R E S S E D.

i just feel like blocking these people.
these few specific people.
delete them.
msn n fon.

i dont know how many time i've said this but i am going to say this again.
i want to get out of this dot as soon as possible!

i dont want to see or think of these people anymore.
im just sick n tired of thinking.
i even get nightmares.
yes nightmares.
not fairytale dreams.



...

nia'

oo its after exams now.yet i am still feeling depressed. giler kot. actually, i found out tat my mum doesnt want me to work nw..as in aft olvls...she wants me to accompany her at hm..since im always out..hmm rumah pun rumah la..tapi mungkin ada hikmah nye disebalik semue ni. so ya la i'll just sign on with tat kendarat grp.cey haha..a few more wks to dec..i tink im gonna love my dec..go kg sembelih kambing..mbeeekk!!! den as usual, i'll go KL visit my sister.. i feel like going there on my own..i wanna feel lonely n independant..since i am lonely now so why not be try be independant also..hmmm kalau gtu i shud werk kn...forget it..my heart is also not realli tat open to werking nw...ok la..i malas nk blog lagi...tata


nia'

wat u thought was e best for ur customers might not be wat the costomers wants.

nia

is that my problem?

ok im here to blog about my sunday being kendarat? haha at bukit gombak..
well, i was just replacing my sister in law that day so, i was with my brother.
at home before my ferst kendarat, my brother was telling me get him a drink n blah3..konon2 train la gtu..eleh tk main ah..hahah..den my mother was like teasing me, nnti tangan mengeletar la mcm kakak kau..mum oh puhlisss my arms are trained enufhaha.action ehk..hahah.

ard 11, i reached e location. i was e youngest.and the other were like all married with kids.bt its good cuz i will tink maturely like them too.(tapi perangai kdg2 pn tk ubah seperti bdk kecil.)ahhah..except abg joe..the guy who is constantly thinking one eg."i dont understand why this kuih is watery. shouldnt this be dry? i still dunt get it u now." blah blah blah..i ws like " HAHAHA!"

aniways, i was abit blur n paiseh on what i was gonna do..den this kak say, buat muke selamba je..yup yup yup..

lucky most of them i knal.. ok la tu.

ferst, i was only appointed to clean e tables n take away the plate n fill up e washing jug..den e baskets of goodies due makcik yang bawak..
skali..makcik ni tak kemana, mak minah(kendarat leader) pass e basket to me..i was like er ok...hahha..so if deres a plate not collected, i'll be like one hand with basket and e other with plates...cool or wat.hahah and ya its aching nw..
n gosh..org2 cerewet sia..haha...ok tkpe..i still put a smile on my face..
e berkat was cadbury choc(fruits n nuts/nuts/choc) for adults n oreo for kids.well to me personally both kids n adults love chocs..so i could so those big kid as in pri sch kids giving me tat sad look when i gave them oreo..hahahah!.
(dik2 bleh mintak yang ada almond tk?)..(alamak sorry saya tkde)..(ah awak tlg tanya kan la yg lagi satu tu ade ke tak)..(kak nab, ade choc yang ada almond tk?)...(ah yang mana? ape bende)..she also blur..hahah..conversation with e tetamu n e kendarat.

ok la..the whole thing to me was a success..and as for me..i am still learning..well from this ive learnt to be cool and dun be kanchiong..ive also leanrt to be jual mahal..wanna noe why..cuz ada abg2 cuci pinggan tried to talk to me..n blah3..like my brader say, thats all standard..haaha.lagipun im dere to do werk not mengatal or aniting.ok la..bt im still frenly n always smiling..den last but nt least ive gt my pay..n whee gd work gd money..haha..im nt gonna tell u hw much i get..bluek! ok la tata.will update soon XD


nia'

peperikasaan peringkat O sudah hampir sampai ke penghujungnya.
murid2 semuanya pasti tidak sabar untuk mengambil kesempatan ini untuk membuat hal2 yang mereka ingin dan yang dinanti2kan. ada yang ingin kerja...yang ada mahu bersuka ria saja..bagi aku, aku mahu kedua-duanya..kerja utk mendapat pengalaman, bersuka ria kerana sudah penat aku belajar.
kebelakangan ini, sering saja aku dengar rakan2 aku berbual tentang kerja. ini telah membuat aku berfikir, adakah aku masih berfikiran seperti anak keanakan..ataupun aku asyik ingin bergantung dgn orang tua aku kerana aku lah anak bongsu yang sering dikaitkan dengan mewah..bingung aku dibuatnya..tapi yang aku pastu..aku akan menghabiskan cuti panjang ini dengan membuang masa membaca buku2 ilmu pengetahuan, belajar bermain guitar, belajar bermain roller blade, menjenguk kakak ku di KL..dan sudah tentu menghabiskan masa ku di kampung pada hari haji nanti. hmm...aku pun blh belajar masak dari mak aku..kalau bukan sekarang..biler lagi kan..nak jugak aku masakan untuk abah aku..memang susah nk dapat abah aku rasa makanan anak nye..XD

kebelakangan ini, otak aku sering bercelaru. tapi ada jgk yang aku dpt menimba dari masalah2 ini semue. hmm..enggak usah la aku bercerita tentang bab ni..tu tak penting..tapi yang penting ialah keputusan olvl aku pada tahun hadapan..all e best to those waiting for e results ya..=)

nia'