perhaps, i just needed to give in.
and keep my cool.

nia

a few days ago, i turned 16.
e morning was heartbreaking,
but e evening was great.
well, deep down, my heart was still aching.

and now,
i feel like im being stalked.
i dunno why but i just dun wanna see tis guy or hav any connections with him.
im sorri if i treated u like a piece of crap.
but thats me..
i noe who i dislike.
and those whom i dislike are usually bad guys.

well e fact is,
i dunno wat i want.
e one who i want,
who i tot was e one.
he cant be e one.

well im not suppose to thing about this crap shit feeling of mine now.
but i somewhat cant get this off my chest.
my mums not here.
lucky my sisterin law was understanding.
if she wasnt dere for me,
i'll be crying all night nw.

3more days to raya i tink.
n maebe i noe wats my day gonna be like.
n ya,
olevels is in less den a month.


i hate doing wat i hate to do.
and tats stupid when i hav to do it.


nia.

hari lahir yang penuh suka dan duka.

untuk pertama kalinya,
dalam usia remaja,
aku sedih di hari ini.
terasa pilu sangat hati ini.
airmata pun tidak malu merebahkan diri.

ucapan selamat hari lahir kamu semua, aku hargai.
hadiah berbagai macam, aku mensyukuri.
dan ini aku ucapakan dari hati, terima kasih.


nia'

hari-hari ku kini semakin suram.
ribut kesedihan kian membawa ku ke alam rindu.

semangnya aku ini anak manja,
kau harus tahu,
menahan air mata,
menyimpan perasaan yg terpendam ini,
memang susah.


"mak, aku doakan, kau selamat pergi dan selamat pulang dan sentiasa bahagia dengan pilihan yang dikecapi."


nia'

this life seem so pathetic as i move on.

apakah hati ini tidak pantas untuk memiliki..?


MUST STUDY AIN!





nia'

i miss u big sister.
i miss u baby izz.
i miss u nana..
i miss u insyirah..
i miss u mun..
gee..
i miss u too brother in law.

most of all i miss kiki!!


nia'

my day?

each day,
evry secs of my life,
now seems so useless.
anwering one question or two just leads me to another useless moment in a day.
shud hav asked abt the correct subject just now.
n now im led into such big confusion that is bound to only be solved by whom it was taught.
i kept thinking how close the big thing is.
the things thats gona determine my future.
yet,
im still here wasting my time,
sorting out my feelings.
writing down the useless moments ive had.
whats wrong with me.
i rather do something useless than someting useful.
but why?
is it because im lacking of attention?
hmm..
aniwaes..i made an empty trip there just now.
n hell yea i felt even more useless.
aniways,
mum said i was like a cicak.."klepek! klepek!"
a sticking cicak.
well..mepek2 pun mak jgk.
kalau aku tk ketawe pade pekare2 kecil2 ni..macam maner lagi rumah ni nk ceria.
well, my teacher finally noes abt my family...now he knows im the youngest..n the eldest in e family is damn eldest.
he asked abt their occupation..and ok he seem pleased.but i he sounded rather serious abt what i wanna be..

man!

WHAT DO I WANNA BE???

ah crap this i stupid!
baliidatun! baliidatun!!!!!


nia'