harapan ku yang selama ini mengunung telah musnah dilanggar kepalsuan nyata.
itu tidak aku nafikan lagi.


nia'

The purpose of calling someone.

It is understood that when you call a person, it means that you want to ask that someone questions or maybe just talk. But little did that certain people understand that communication can also have certain barriers which blocks or filters a persons interpretation or understanding towards the message.

One example is telephone. Specifically handphone. Handphones can be very "pekak" at times whereby the connection can be really sucky if ur in certain places which are enclosed or maybe the place ur in is just not anywhere to be connected easily. Anyway my point is, if u call a person to talk or to ask questions, it means that you should say, "eh i cant hear you) or (eh are you there?) if u can't hear that person replying you. Yes it may be due to emotion factors example crying or just feeling down or something. But the stupidest thing someone would ever do is to assume that person is actually not answering you but the fact is she did.

You are smart and intelligent academically, but why is it that your so emotinally disturbed all the time? Assuming what others might think can be very unhealthy at times. If you are assuming something, and that assumtion was wrong, it is ur own risk of making the relationship/friendship/situation or whatever get tension or make urself feel down and stressed up.

So I would like to conclude this post by saying, never assume if you do not have real cues. But cues can also be misinterpreted. So, the best thing is to assume only is the case is beneficial. If you assume about something that could create a conflict for example hard feelings or anything, it'll be pointless. You'll get depressed over nuts. And always understand and remember that, there is such thing as interpersonal communication barriers.


nia'

Apakah kau akan kembali seperti dulu?
Seperti dulu ketika kau selalu sibuk hingga lupa akan cintamu.

Adakah aku hanya sebagai dinding sandaran kamu?

Apakah benar kau cintakan aku?

Apakah benar kau ingin bersamaku?

Apa aku selalu membebankan mu?

Apakah kau benar, tahu isi yang tersirat di hati ini?
Apa yang membenak di dada ini?

Apakah kau tahu aku rasa di tipu, diperdaya...?
Dan terus tenggelam dalam laut penipuan mu?

Apakah benar aku ditipu...?
Aku tidak tahu...
Buktikan kepada aku bahwa kau tidak ada niat menipu.
Tunjuk kan aku yang kau bukan seperti dahulu..
Dan apa kau katakan kepadaku, apa semua itu yang kamu ucapkan kepada ku itu adalah benar...

supaya aku tidak lagi dibelenggu perasaan yang tidak aku dugakan..


nia'

olalalaaaaaaa readers. Its sunny Friday today. I have an unsound voice, and a pair of robotic legs(muscle aches). Well, this is an unplanned post. Just feel like cleaning the cobwebs of this blog.

Anyways, i have a random dream this morning. I dreamt of touching a guy's 8pax.l Its like hotness!! This is a very random dream I tell you. And I have no idea who the heck the guy is. But thats all that i dreamt about nothing more. HAHA! macam stupid gitu.

So an update of myself. Currently waiting for many things to happen. I am patiently waiting, eventhough i can get aggressive, but that doesnt mean that i being impatient, but just wanna make things go faster. =) HAha, might as well say im impatient. But hey, im patient enough to tolerate certain peoples crap they give me. All it takes is a SMART GIRL'S POWER. Well im not going to whine about what had made me say that la. Its pointless.

So, am currently busy with mly dance practises, dunno can get thru or not. And currenly having my hols. Will be starting school again on monday. Holey monday. I dont really look forward to it. All I can say is my class has a spirit of "hangat-hangat tahi ayam" What has happen to the class!!!!! Tensions here and there, wats up with you guys? Do you have some kind of socialising problems with people whom arent your type? Get a breather...



nia'

Kasih sayang dan perhatian. Itu saja yang aku inginkan.
Terlalu banyak dipikul, hingga bergenak dihati.
Hasilnya, hanya airmata yang berlinangan.

Seorang pemarah, ia itu aku.
Seorang pemalas, ia itu juga aku.
Bila digabungkan, serorang yang lebih penyabar tersemat dalam diriku.




to be continued...